I stood in the darkness. I could feel it moving around me, searching. I looked around, but my eyes could not pierce the gloom. After standing alone for what seemed like an eternity, I gradually became aware of a presence beside me. It did not speak, but I knew it was a person. It turned slowly to face me. It seemed to me then to not be a single person, but rather an image, or representation, of many people. It seemed to be trying to speak, but could not form the words. Instead I could hear its thoughts; they seemed to flow from it like water. It was waiting for something to come. Something certain, unavoidable. It was afraid. It did not know of Love, or Peace, or Joy. These things were absent from It's thoughts entirely. It was devoid of all Hope. And at that moment, I was a part of it. I felt the overwhelming terror, the certainty of what was to come. I could no longer distinguish its thoughts from mine. Darkness. And Despair. Those thoughts consumed me. And then the moment was there; the end, without hope. And I was falling, falling down to a place no light could reach, a place of death. But then, when we were devoid of Hope, I heard a voice, calling out from above. "The Son of Man is come to seek and to save those who are lost." And I woke up. It took me a moment to realize it was a dream, it had been so vivid. And I started thinking about what it was that I saw. I know I pray a lot for "people to be saved", to come to Christ. For the children who are orphans. But it was never really urgent. It was always "those people". The ones who seemed so far away that even though, yeah I was concerned about them, it really didn't "affect" my life. I couldn't see their faces. Couldn't hear their cries, when another baby died of malnutrition, or another man died not knowing Christ's love. But they are there. Whether or not we choose see these people, does not change the fact that they are there. Waiting. So my prayer for today is:
Lord, please break my heart for what breaks yours. Please let me see the hurting, the despair, and let your light shine shine through me into the hearts of the dying. Not for my glory, Lord, but so that you may be glorified in everything I do. Please use my life to glorify you, Lord. Amen.
